All I wanted was for him to stay & fight for me instead of giving up and moving on . And the saddest part is that it’s like he doesn’t even care . It shouldn’t bother me beach use it’s been almost a year now , but it’s killing me . I’m fighting to get him out of my head . And what’s even worse is that every time a boy wants to love me , i pull back because I got hurt . Really hurt & sometimes when that happens , something insides you shuts down . Me and him separating hurts , but it’s fonna be the memory’s that kill me . I miss him all day everyday & he has no idea how pathetic that makes me feel because I don’t even know if me misses me . I’m holding on to hope . That’s it . HOPE . I don’t just love this boy . I’m IN LOVE with him . There’s a difference . It makes you do things you said you would never do . It takes complete control of your feelings . I’ve cried . But what sucks about that is that crying isn’t fonna make anything better . It’s not gonna make him love me again . It’s not gonna change anything . So what I need to do is keep my head up and realize that he is GONE . And I might be missing out on someone better . I just want him , his smile . Omfg . His smile
